Girlish fondness
[ Home ]I want to talk to him.
But I so fear that he would get sick of me.
My language is poor. So is my knowledge. I fear so that he would think me ignorant, then he wouldn’t want to befriend me. I don’t fear that people consider me ignorant, just can’t bear the thought that he would leave me. Despite the fact that we have never been together so far.
I may have fallen in love with a fantasy, an illusion. But isn’t this the best time to fall in love? If I hadn’t fallen in love for now, I shall fall in love for never.
He wouldn’t know I can now do many things for him. Have sex, in any ways he likes. Stare at the phone all day long just to wait for his appearance. But I should worry that mybody is not that perfect, that he would feel disappointed. Then we shall meet at night, with lights off, TV on, and make love in the light dark. His cat miaowing beside. I on top of him, he inside me. I see his face, his eyes smiling to me. I can’t help kiss him, but I am so shy that I bury my head in his neck.
We wake up the second day, holding on to each other in bed with carpet on. I look at his face, feel so content yet know that all this is coming to an end.
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