stream of consciousness posing as prose

posing as prose, i really like the sound of that. maybe i like the sound of every similar word. prose pose plows rose i really don't know i must sound like a complete idiot, babbling things like these on a chinese blogging site where no one will see me hear my cries who do i think i am anyways some stupid ice princess all fragile with emotions and wracked with jealousy and hate regret maybe more of sadness i don't know i really don't know. repetition there again i keep on finding myself repeating myself wasn't i trying to write prose? gone are the elegant words making up prose hey look this is authentic authintic means more fuck spelling errors authentin authentic is more. timeout timeout why did i want to come here in the first place? 

wasn't the reason behind this to fulfill my never-ending yawning gaping abyss of an ego? 

i don't know

i really don't know

repetition times three i guess that makes it peter paul n marie

i miss you